Well, hi. Long time no do blogging, and it's already 2015.
So, happy new year! HAHA

For me, 2015 is just a new year, new calender exactly. There's no special celebration like everyone's did, because last night I celebrated it with a fast asleep. By the way, in 2014, I've had some resolutions. Some have passed, but some haven't -- due to my laziness, also I didn't do those resolutions at all, hehehe. Alhamdulillah Allah still gives me a chance to continue what I have to do, what I might have been, in this new year.

Remember 2014, remember many incredible memories. In that year, I was happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time, it's miserable and magical oh yeaaah haha but not too much. In 2014, I fell down & stood up for many times, but that was okay. In 2014, I decided many choices which I didn't know whether it would be a good thing for me or not. I did many mistakes, but I also learned many things. I also slowly realized what maturity does like. I had many experiences that brought me into a better person (I hope, aamiin!). I realize about a real life isn't as easy as I see -- I mean we still need an effort to reach every parts of our life. More demands that we have, more responsibility that we have to take. At last, I did it, but I need to be more careful, and do every steps better. Thank you Allah, for those remarkable scenarios that you gave to me. Thank you for people, places, days, moments, and everything that would be a great part of my life ahead.

Thank you Allah, You still gives me a breath, a chance, to take this day as...

This is the last day of 2013. Tomorrow will be the first day in 2014. Hope Allah still gives me a breath. For me, 2013 is great. So much amazing things happened on this year. On this year, I graduated from JHS and entered new school; which was so hard to find a good school, haha. I had national exams. Then, on January, my class had Pagelaran; this was the best. On August of this year, I turned 16. I also visited my born-city, Banyuwangi, by plane (I think it was interesting bcs it was long time since the last time when I was 7 years old). Also, at my new school, I met a lot of new friends. Now, I've been living at dormitory (and it will be my first experience!). I had my first exams at SHS. I had some new experiences on this year. So much things that I must grateful for. Thank you, Allah, for this extraordinary-year.

How about my resolution (or goal or wish) on 2014? Haha, I don't know for sure. But for the 1st must-to-do is being a dilligent person, and not being a lazy person anymore. (mmm, it must start from now, wk)
Then I want to buy a new camera by myself. Learn more about photography.
Be more creative and positive.
Write a short-story at least 2 stories per 3 months. Haha!
Focus on study and take a new experience at school. Be more active, not passive.
What else? Mm, be better than last year. Hope I can manage the time well.

So, welcome..

Ibuku hebat.
Ibu selalu memasakkanku makanan yang enak setiap hari.
Nasi gorengnya tidak pakai kecap, tapi rasanya sudah seperti nasi goreng restoran bintang lima.
Ibu sangat cantik setiap hari. Ibu lebih cantik daripada bidadari.
Ibu juga suka memberikan uang jajan lebih kepadaku, untuk jaga-jaga kalau ada sesuatu yang mendadak.
Ibu rela menjengukku bahkan menemaniku belajar setiap malam, padahal ibu sudah capek berjualan seharian.
Ibu selalu meneleponku setiap hari, bertanya apakah aku baik-baik saja.
Ibu suka mengingatkanku untuk sholat. Ibu nggak pernah bosan untuk itu.
Ibu bilang, aku harus menjadi anak yang mandiri. Anak yang bisa apa saja. Seperti ibu.
Ibuku nggak suka anak yang manja.
Ibu bisa menjahit, tapi nggak suka menjahit. Ibu lebih suka berjualan.
Ibu kalau sudah capek selalu marah-marah. Tapi penyebabnya memang aku dan adikku.
Ibu selalu membangunkanku setiap pagi. Walau setiap malam ibu selalu bilang, "Besok bangun pagi sendiri, ya. Jangan ibu terus yang ngebangunin."
Ibuku suka warna hijau dan ibu suka makan sayur. Tidak sepertiku yang anti sayur.
Ibu suka menyanyi. Dulu ibu pernah ikut lomba menyanyi waktu SD.
Ibu nggak terlalu suka bercanda. Ibu sangat serius, tapi santai.
Ibu nggak suka kalau sifat kekanak-kanakkanku muncul. Kata ibu, itu bukan tipe ibu.
Ibu selalu membelaku kalau ayah sedang capek kemudian marah kepadaku.
Aku selalu meminta doa kepada ibuku setiap hari. Aku pernah bilang, "Ibu, doakan Fifah, ya?" Kemudian ibu menjawab, "Ibu selalu mendoakan Fifah. Tapi, jangan lupa berusaha dulu."
Ibuku suka curhat kepadaku.
Aku pernah membuat ibu menangis karena aku nakal. Itu adalah kesalahan terbesar dalam hidupku.
Kata-kata ibu adalah quote terbaik yang pernah aku dapat.
Ibuku adalah orang pertama yang mengajarkanku segalanya. Ibuku lebih dari seorang guru.
Lalu,
apalagi yang harus kuceritakan tentang ibuku?
Aku nggak tau bagaimana caranya aku mendeskripsikan tentang ibuku. Tentang bagaimana aku mencintai ibuku. Karena cinta itu tidak bisa dideskripsikan.
Aku mencintai ibu.
Aku selalu ingin cepat-cepat sampai rumah. Karena Ibu pasti akan berkata, "Fifah makan dulu, terus jangan lupa mandi. Sudah sholat belum?"
Tidak ada satupun orang yang bertanya seperti itu kepadaku, selain ibu.
Kepedulian seorang ibu adalah abadi.
Jika suatu hari aku hidup sendiri dan jauh dari ibu... Aku tidak bisa membayangkan sekarang. Aku bersyukur karena ibu masih ada. Begitu juga ayahku. Aku sangat bersyukur. Rabbigh firlii waliwaa lidayya warhamhumaa kamaa rabbayaanii shaghiiraa.

It's December 13th and I'm pretty excited. Because today is Taylor Swift's birthday! She's turning 23. Last night I spent my time to count hour on until it's 00.00. But it was failed because I was too sleepy. Then I tweeted 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAYLOR ASDFGHJKL' yay my timeline was colorful with Swifties. They changed their display name into 'Taylor Swift' and their avatar too. I did too. Swifties are as awesome as Taylor.

Keep calm.

So, I want to say, Happy 23rd Birthday, Taylor Alison Swift. I don't know how to put into words anymore. Thank you for everything you gave to me. I hope you still love cupcakes, candies, sweet things and everything that makes being you. Because we love you so much.


P. S : it's 4th day of last exam. Wish me luck. :)

Today (11/20) is the Universal Children's Day. You know it's so meaningful to us. Every children hope for our human rights. Because everything that we want is live in peaceness. We can go to school, see a peace world, no more hunger, cry, and hurt. We can grow up normally. No discrimination on us, because we are all the same. We are the children. We are the world.

When I see and hear the news about Gaza and Palestine, especially with its women and children there, I cry. I know it shouldn't happen on them. Why. Why some people are so selfish then they kill the children? Why should the children? They haven't sin. They're just children who want live as same as your children. And today is Children's Day, they have to know about it, but today 20+ children were killed. Where are the human rights?


I'm 15 and I spelled a teenager. But I was being child and it was the greatest moment ever. I will never forget those moments. Not only me, but everyone too. And every children should deserve it. This is life. If I got happiness when I was kid, they should get too. But they can't. And I cry because of it. Many teenagers cry for no reason, just because theirselves only. But can you see the children out there? They cry because they lost their parents and their friends are died.

I can't say anymore. I must to be grateful for what I have now. I don't know what should I do, but I promise that I always pray for them. Pray for my friends out there. I hope that Allah will always hear my pray. Our faith is stronger than their bomb. Let's pray for Gaza.

It's already August 3rd, isn't it? And I'm turning 15 now. Yippie! It is my 2nd birthday in Ramadhan. So glad that I'm celebrating my birthday with fasting. So lucky to all leo! :-p btw why I'm so glad? Because, Indonesian-teenagers' tradition, sometimes celebrating people's birthday with make fun of or bullying--like that--but then of course they give a present and a birthday cake. And it's very exciting.. if that plan have a success. But I'm very so special today, haha lol. My mom and dad didn't like celebrate a birthday, so they just gave me a wish. Also my brother. My friends? THEY WERE MADE MY DAY TOO. Haha thank you for the wishes, and everything y'all gave me to me. Especially for tweeps.

I know that now I'm getting older. So I must get better too. But if you listen to Fifteen by Taylor Swift, you'll feel good-realizing that now you're 15! Here's some lyrics.

Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
Feeling like there nothing to figure out
Well count to ten, take it in
This is life before who you're gonna be
Fifteen

Taylor, you just made me feel really special on my birthday. Haha :) May Allah bless this month and for whoever who get birthday on this month.

Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk to through those doors ♥